This is my 100th post. On Wednesday, 5/5/10, I wrote my inaugural post entitled A Simple Twist of Faith. I had been at my new job, a full-time Mom, for three days when I started this blog. It has been over five months since I made this faithful decision, and I can honestly say I would not change it, however it has not been an easy transition. I thank all of my friends, old and new, who have followed me on this blog, who have encouraged me, prayed for me, and laughed with me. I would like to share with you a few reflections:
My relationship with my children:
I can honestly say when I worked , my professional life came first. I hate to say it, but my daily schedule reflected this priority. On weekdays, I left the house at 6:45 am and did not return home until 5:45 pm. Now, my children take priority in my life and the payoff is that tremendous. My relationship with my girls has deepen significantly. I will say it is not perfect. Some days we grow tired of each other because we spent so much time together. Sometimes, they are cranky to me, sometimes I am cranky towards them. However, we have built an emotional bond I never had with either of them when I worked. This is especially true in the case of my youngest child. The change in her has been striking. Bumblebee has transformed from an insecure, clingy baby to a confident, happy three-year old girl. I continue to struggle with making time with my husband a priority. This is something I still need to work on…
The Generosity of Others
I thank God every day for the support and kindness people have shown my family. Friends have been so generous with clothes, food, and gift certificates to help us with this transition. Today is a perfect example. My neighbor’s six-year-old daughter gave Bumblebee her 12- inch Purple Princess bike. By now, after her birthday party, many of you know Bumblebee loves all things purple and adores princesses. She was overjoyed with this bicycle. Within, a 1/2 hour of Daddy putting on the training wheels, she was zipping down the street after Ladybug.
Time for Myself
I am still amazed how little time I have for myself and how much I need that time. I must admit I was under a false impression that stay-at-home Moms have an unlimited amount of time. I still struggle with my expectation of what I should be able to do, and the reality of what I actually can do. I wish I had a more easygoing personality who could let it all go, but alas I do not. I struggle with this on a daily basis. I have learned much about myself over the past five months, however I still have a lot of work to do within myself. I need to hand it over to the Lord, and let Him point me in the right direction.